Grand Teton National Park • The nylon walls of the hut perched on the moraine between the Middle and Grand Tetons slap in the wind as weary climbers pass chunks of chocolate and joke away their worries in the gathering darkness.
Chad Jukes, 28, who grew up in North Logan, recounts the absurdity of putting his prosthetic leg on and taking it off for poses in yoga class.
There's talk of inventing weapons like those in the movie "The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo" knives jutting from prosthetic limbs.
"You ought to get a Sharpie and paint a moose on that leg of yours," Jukes tells Andrew "Sully" Sullens, an Afghanistan war veteran from Georgia who is rolling a compression sleeve up his right leg, which ends just below his knee.
A pensive Sullens, 29, takes care with the sleeve. If his stump is swollen, it won't fit into his prosthetic leg's socket in the morning when he, Jukes and Nicolette "Nico" Maroulis, 35 three veterans injured in war begin the final ascent to the summit of one of the West's classic mountains, Wyoming's Grand Teton, 13,770 feet above sea level.
Two of their Exum Mountain Guides are veterans of the Iraq and Afghanistan wars. The group has hiked seven miles and 5,000 feet of elevation to reach the lower saddle of the Grand Teton on the eve of Sept. 11.
Heading up. • Waking at 4:40 a.m. the next morning, Sullens, of Dahlonega, Ga., and Maroulis, of Austin, Texas, are feeling the effects of the hut's 11,600 feet elevation. Sullens is queasy and has to force himself to eat oatmeal and beef jerky.
Maroulis is slightly dizzy and her hip hurts. Both have headaches.
But Jukes, who lives in the high-altitude town of Ridgway, Colo., is acclimated. He spends nearly an hour pressing mugs of Vick's Blend coffee from Boulder through an AeroPress.
The three disabled veterans are accompanied by three guides and seven others, including Timmy O'Neill, a well-known climber and executive director of Paradox Sports, a Boulder, Colo., nonprofit, which is a sponsor of the trip, along with the charitable website MyBrightMountain.com.
One Exum Guide is Mike Abbey, 36, a former Force Reconnaisance Marine and mountain-warfare specialist who served several tours in Iraq, including two years as a State Department contractor. He jokes that Jukes may as well pump all the caffeine he brought into his fellow climbers.
The climb "will be quicker in the long run, even if it takes us a half hour to drink it," says Abbey, who will use ropes hooked to Jukes' and Maroulis' harnesses to keep them safe on the Grand.
When the team sets out for the summit at 6:35 a.m., the temperature is 36 degrees but wind chill makes it feel like 21.
The wind is blowing at 42 mph, with gusts of 64 mph that nearly knock the climbers off their feet.
"That was the biggest gut check," Sullens says later. "I was hauling up that hill with my head hung low, thinking, 'What the hell am I doing?'"
Sullens: 'This is bigger than myself' • Four hours and 15 minutes of pulling and pushing his muscled body up granite pitches and Sullens is on top, looking at a view that reaches as far as Old Faithful in Yellowstone to the north, Jackson Lake below, the smoke-choked town of Jackson to the south and Idaho's Teton Valley to the west.
The battery on a vacuum pack that keeps his leg's silicon sleeve tightly sealed in the socket has failed on the way up. The bottom of his leg hurts.
"I'm pretty beat," says Sullens. "I just want to nap."
The former sheriff's SWAT team member says he wanted to quit several times on the ascent but knew he couldn't.
"This is bigger than myself," says Sullens, who joined the Navy a year after the Sept. 11, 2001, terrorist attacks because he couldn't see sitting on the sidelines as his generation fought the war.
He was in the Georgia National Guard when an improvised explosive device (IED) exploded his truck in Afghanistan in 2009. After trying to make do with a mangled leg, he opted for amputation in February 2011.
Sullens says he summited Grand Teton as an example to other injured vets who might be tempted by self-pity.
"Sure you were injured, but you don't have to feel something was taken away from you," says Sullens. "You've got to be willing to get up that extra 20 minutes early to put your leg on. You can be that person."
Jukes: Climbing past amputation • Atop the Grand, the team poses for pictures with sponsor banners. Once settled, they observe a somber minute of silence before Jukes pulls out his bugle. Its brass mouthpiece is brittle in the cold, but he manages a clear rendition of taps.
Afterward, the three injured vets, all now in college, hug for a long while. Maroulis turns her back to hide tears.
Jukes, 28, joined a Logan-based Army Reserve unit in 2002 while still a senior at Skyview High School in Smithfield and had hoped to make it into the Army Band.
Instead, he was sent to Afghanistan and later Iraq, where his right foot was smashed in a December 2006 IED attack. Four months later, while on convalescent leave in Utah, his foot became infected and he made the decision to amputate.
Jukes uses a foot called a "stomper," which looks like a hockey puck on a pylon. It leaves a smiley face impression in dirt.
He has never regretted leaving his foot in the surgery suite at Ogden's McKay-Dee Medical Center.
"I basically chopped it off so I could climb."
Maroulis: 'My summit day' • Maroulis says Sept. 11 anniversaries are always difficult.
"A lot of soldiers celebrate their 'alive day,' the day someone intentionally tried to kill them," says Maroulis, who was working at a U.S. government school in Germany in 2001 and joined the Navy just days after the attacks on the World Trade Center and Pentagon.
A bomb-sniffing-dog handler, she was injured in a 2003 blast and suffered a traumatic brain injury that put her in a wheelchair for about three years. She continues to have equilibrium issues and has had five surgeries in the past year.
Conquering the Grand on Sept. 11 is an attempt to regain control over tangled emotions, she says.
"It's … a way for me to put all that emotion I've been feeling about that day and leave it on the mountain, take it out on the mountain."
"This," says Maroulis, "is my summit day."
Heading down • Guide Mike Kirby, 35, is moved by his charges' achievement. "I love you guys, everyone," he says.
Kirby, the veteran with the most recent injury, guides Sullens and Eric Gray, who is Sullens' friend and climbing instructor from Atlanta.
A Ranger who taught other soldiers mountaineering skills, Kirby was in the Army twice, in the 1990s and again for most of the last decade. He did three tours in Iraq and one in Afghanistan, getting out in the summer of 2011.
In October, he suffered frostbite while climbing Long's Peak in Colorado and had half of his right foot amputated in December. He uses a temporary prosthetic.
This Sept. 11 trip was his idea, and now, at the top of the Grand, he's keeping it moving.
"Well, guess what?" he says, as Jukes puts his bugle away. "We've got more work to do. We've got a long way to go."
The team climbs down the Owen-Spaulding route on the west face in about 3½ hours, including a rappel down a particularly steep pitch.
Sullens' leg is too thrashed to continue the steep hike out, so he, Gray and Kirby stay for a second night in the lower saddle hut before hiking out Sept. 12.
The rest eat a late lunch, move their clothes, food and water into bigger backpacks and begin walking in the late afternoon past the Middle Teton glacier and into Garnet Canyon. It is dark an hour before they reach the Lupine Meadows trailhead.
Maroulis, who has poor depth perception in the dim light of her headlamp and has been struggling to take each step because her knees keep locking, says this is one of the toughest parts of the trip.
But she never considers quitting.
"It makes me feel good to have that idea in my head that, no matter what I'm faced with, I can find my way out."
Getting out, getting well. • Gray, who helped start the Veterans Affairs' first adaptive climbing program at the VA hospital in Augusta, Ga., says climbing and other recreational therapies often works wonders in ways that psychotherapy can't.
When vets climb together, it creates a potent medicine made of goals set and reached, teamwork, communication and camaraderie, he says.
"Climbing is a group thing. It's like the brotherhood you have in the military. You have to trust in the person holding onto the other end of the rope," he says.
It can also give an adrenaline rush that vets miss, he says.
And often, at the end of a day of climbing, as veterans sort through the experience, they open up in ways they don't do for therapists in offices.
"They naturally tell their story when they are ready," says Gray, who has quit his job at the Augusta VA to start a nonprofit, Catalyst Sports, to help those with disabilities learn to rock climb.
Jukes and Maroulis have both witnessed the benefits.
They first met on a cross-country veterans ride in 2010 he on a bicycle and her on a hand-cycle and later that year climbed the 20,000-foot high Mount Lobuche in Nepal as part of a veterans group.
"I've seen a lot of people who are disabled. I've seen their lives completely changed," says Jukes. "People who feel incomplete go out in the mountains and go through a complete transformation that years of traditional therapy didn't achieve."
Keith Tidball, a Cornell University researcher who served in the National Guard for more than 15 years, says the VA and Department of Defense increasingly recognize the value of getting injured vets into nature for fishing, hunting or more extreme sports.
But there isn't yet much empirical data for why it's good medicine and that means there's not a lot of money for such programs.
"It should be a given and it should make sense, but it doesn't quite yet," says Tidball, who has two research projects involving veterans in nature, funded by the Department of Agriculture and the Environmental Protection Agency.
"These soldiers are just coming back in waves now, so I am just at the very tip of the iceberg," he says.
Maroulis says such physical challenges continue to help her heal.
"After you get injured, so many people are worried to let you do anything. They don't want to see you fail," she says.
But conquering a goal "expands my identity and allows me to see myself as more whole than I could before. I'm not just the injured girl anymore."